I'm gonna miss this.

I have a lot of blog posting to catch up with, but I have just felt so blessed and grateful today that those other posts can wait.

Today, Josh got up early and left for work while Ellie and I got to cuddle and watch an episode of Curious George. I am so grateful for a husband who works hard to provide for us so that I can stay home with our babies. Seriously, staying at home with ELlie is the absolute best and Josh is the absolute best for working so hard that I can.

Then Ellie and I made breakfast together- her favorite: scrambled eggs and sausage with some bananas on the side. Before we started to eat she folded her arms to remind me to pray.

We cleaned up Ellie's bedroom and cleaned out her clothes that are too small for her now then she watched me vacuum the living room and bedrooms from the safety of the couch and beds. One day she won't be scared of the vacuum! She helped me unload and load the dishwasher and even started it for me.

While she napped, I finally got dressed for the day and caught up on the laundry. When she woke up, we took the trash down the stairs and loaded it in the car so we could take it to the garbage drop off and then on to the post office to get the mail. Of course, she had to go down the stairs all by herself and run to the car and wait for me to open the door for her.

As we came down the hill to drop off the garbage, Trace Adkins song "You're gonna miss this" came on the radio and as I looked in my rear view mirror at my sweet little girl I just burst into tears. Of course she was looking out the window laughing and then when she saw me said "OH NO!" with a concerned look on her face. That sweet girl is constantly aware of her mommy and if I am happy or sad. She even tries to protect me from the Dr at all my prenatal appointments. haha

I dropped off the trash and as we continued onto the post office I tried to compose myself. We got out at the post office and she ran up the sidewalk with our netflix in her hand and pushed open the door to wait for me. Every single time we get the mail at least 3 people tell me how cute she is and how much fun it looks like we're having. And I always say thanks and still can't get over how blessed I am to be this little girl's mommy.

So, Its true. I am going to miss this. I'm going to miss simple days like today. I'm going to miss cuddling with Ellie in the mornings and having her all to myself all day long. I'm going to miss my little shadow, helper, and sous chef. I'm going to miss going outside to play with her everyday no matter the weather just because she LOVES being outside. While I know she's only 16 months old, time is going by waaaay too fast for me. And in three months we'll have another sweet little babe here. I will have more to do everyday than I can probably handle, and although I'll still be with Ellie all day, its going to be different. Fun and wonderful, but different.

Becoming a mom has made me so sentimental and emotional... I so desperately want to remember each moment and each day, because I am going to miss this. This hard, exhausting, emotional, fun, entertaining, and wonderful time in my life.